Archive for March, 2012

A Way Out

It has been years since I’ve watched Beauty and The Beast.  I’ve forgotten how much I enjoy watching those old Disney princesses animations.  I think a Disney movie marathon is called for after I am done with my bachelors degree.  That is, if I don’t fail any of the hell subjects that I have this final semester.

Watching Beauty and The Beast kinda reminds me of something that I’ve always kept hidden since I’ve started university.  I’ve always been a whimsical child since young but I do not show that side of me to people anymore.  Only to those few who were the closest of friends do I show them the idiotic crazy me, all defenses down.  I wonder if it’s really that hard to be me in front of others.  I have put on a stone expression so often that sometimes I forgot how it feels like to smile naturally when I want to and I hate being out of my room so much that I’m practically a hermit.  I am getting a little too comfortable with my fandom, books and crafts that I am not willing to take a step further forward.  Maybe I should try a little harder to get out of my shell.  But it is so hard to do so.  No one is here to back me up when I fail or give me a hug when things gets rough.  I miss those people who would always know the right things to say to me when I am feeling down and who I can feel comfortable with without caring for appearances or even being careful with words.  Those people are always there for me without asking for anything in return.  Because that is what friends are for.  They are the people that have never asked me for anything at all, and because of that, I am willing to give them everything of mine in return.

I want much more than this provincial life!
I want adventure in the great wide somewhere
I want it more than I can tell
And for once it might be grand
To have someone understand
I want so much more than they’ve got planned


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Which Tarot Card Am I?

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

I wonder if this really describes me…  Hmm…

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